I spent my whole life searching
Wandering and wondering
Looking and longing
For that one that could complete me
The one that could release me
The one that could relieve me
From a lifetime of regret
From a lifetime of distress
From a lifetime of loneliness
And now that I have found them
I know it all was true
But I never expected to discover
The one was me not you
Yes it’s true,
I am my own pure soul mate
I’ve known me from the start
I am the one I’ve been waiting for
I knew it in my heart
The one I’ve always dreamed of
Was me all along
And now together we can sing
A lifelong true love song
I am the one
The one and only
The one I’ve found
So I’ll never be lonely
I’ll always be there
To watch my back
I’ll always be there
To keep myself on track
I’ll never betray me
Or take me for granted
I’ll never deceive me
Or just leave me stranded
I know I can trust me
I’ve proved that for sure
I know it must be me
I’ll keep this love pure
In this world made...
To hear the sparkle of your laughter
To feel the warmth of your touch
To smell the sweetness of your presence
To see the lightness of your love
You and I, side by side
You and I on this ride
You and I...
In a lifetime made for two
I searched the world to find you
Settled for nothing less than the divine you
I would wait a thousand lifetimes
For a chance at just one moment
A brief dalliance with your brilliance
A dance within your essence
A glance at your expression
And all would be understood
You and I, arm in arm
You and I, grace and charm
You and I...
On this adventure made for two
In the darkness I can sense you
Breathing in the shadows
Holding space for our potential
Giving love to our essentials
And setting all
Of our fears free
You and I, cheek and cheek
You and I, full of mystique
You and I... I’ve fallen deep
On a journey just us two
It was always you and I
Painting miracles in the sky
Touching greatness with our eyes
And tempting fate with our desire
You brought clarity to my madness
Thank you sun for sneaking in and waking me so gently. Your warmth, your light, your consistency, and dependability reminds me of who I want to be.
Thank you bed, thank you pillow for holding me through the night, cradling my body and my head and giving me the gift of rest.
Thank you dreams for propelling me onward, for reminding me there is more to do, for giving my imagination free range to roam.
Thank you coffee for your warmth and that morning ritual that gives me the time and space to find my bearings and wake on my own terms.
Thank you hot shower and running water for rinsing yesterday off me and letting me start anew. Your forgiveness of the past and embracing of the present helps me to own my day.
Thank you razor for not cutting my skin but for cleansing my face of yesterdays remnants. With your sharp edge, you remind to be present, and gentle with myself.
Thank you mirror for giving me the joy of seeing my smiling face looking back at me. Because of you I know I am a work...
Why am I always looking for more, better, bigger, faster?
Why am I challenging myself? Trying to learn new tools, stretching my boundaries, questioning my assumptions?
Why is it that I am willing to throw away what is certain for the chance of something that might be better?
Is it blind faith, misguided hope, or something else?
I like to think that it is simply untapped potential.
I can’t tell you how many times in school my teacher had to say to me that I wasn’t living up to my potential. It always got under my skin. Rubbed me the wrong way. Made me question how I was showing up, what my potential was, and how she knew I wasn’t reaching it.
I mean after all, what is potential? It’s not a certainty. It’s not definite. It’s not without doubt. It’s just a big maybe. Maybe you can do more. Maybe you can be bigger. Maybe there’s something else out there for you, that you are more well-suited to.
Whatever it is, I find...
It’s not the big things that make the difference.
It’s not the big things that matter.
It’s the little ones…
The every day, so small I don’t even think about it decisions that I make that turn me left, that turn me right… That lead me down one pathway or another.
It’s the little things.
The little things that done consistently make bigger things and bigger things.
The should I eat that second slice decisions.
The should I leave that plate in the sink decisions
The should I take a walk at lunch decisions
The should I shave decisions
The should I make my bed decisions
Every day I make them.
A million times a day.
And in every moment, there are choices.
The setting of my character.
The changing of my habits.
The should I tell her I love her today decisions
The should I call my dad today decisions
The can I leave work early and pick him up early from school and go do something fun with him decisions.
The should I do it...
I had always been afraid.
Afraid of what people thought of me
Afraid of being a failure
Afraid of being a success
I was petrified of looking stupid
Especially in front of women
And that fear held me hostage.
Held me back.
Held me captive.
One night on a date
We found ourselves in a karaoke bar
She was on edge
Hoping I would get up and sing for her
But the fear kept me seated
I wanted to.
But I couldn’t break free.
I never saw her after that night
It was all my fault
And I learned my lesson
I forced myself
To get on that stage
It took weeks, but I did it.
Standing on that stage
The microphone in hand
The crowd drunk and easy to please
I let myself be free
I gave the fears away
I sang with all my heart
And surprised even myself
It got easier after that
And each time I stepped on stage
I cared a little less
About what people thought
About whether I would fail
About whether I would succeed
About whether I looked foolish
The answer to all was yes
But it didn’t really matter
I was free
When I got dressed this morning, pulled on that nice shirt, those clean pants, those silly socks… I wanted to look good. But I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.
I like the way I feel when I look good. When I know that my clothes match. It’s not about how you see me, it’s not about having someone stop me on the road and say “oh my God you’re picture perfect”, it’s not so that I get compliments and people ask me where I buy those shoes… It’s just for me. How it makes me feel inside. How I hold myself up when I know I look good.
When I walked into work today, ready to go, coffee in hand, prepared for my day with my checklist of items that needed to be accomplished, when I satisfied all your needs quickly and then stepped up for other tasks, I wanted you to be happy. I wanted you to know that I was a good worker and was going to take care of you. But I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.
I like the job I do, the...
So, we’ve all heard it… A rolling stone gathers no moss. But is it true? Maybe we should ask Mick Jagger… he’s still rolling and rolling and rolling, as the lead singer of one of the longest running, constantly performing, still touring, and still rocking bands on the planet. The fact that his band is called The Rolling Stones is just a coincidence… it’s his inner momentum that keeps him going forward at full steam, and keeps him looking fairly young (all things considered).
In the last post, I talked a lot about changing your life and changing your story. I talked about shifting your perspective away from what you have been doing, to what you WANT to be doing. Now, the big question… How do you keep moving in that new direction?
One Word: MOMENTUM
For me, momentum has been one of the tenets of my life… a belief that I have had and utiilized since high school. The theory is simple, in the morning, start yourself in...
Tonight, I got put face to face with a past version of myself. This man, stuck in his story, was busy manifesting in the wrong direction. He has been successful in his life, but at this point in time, he is at a loss on how to move forward. I know this place. I know this man. He is me.
When I have found myself in a hole, I am always the first man to beat myself up. To blame myself for where I am. To berate and deride each and every accomplishment I have made… each and every positive decision…. each and every step towards a solution. I will bash myself over the head for every mistake, and swear I’ll never get on the right track.
They say if you’re in a hole, and you want to get out, the first step is… STOP DIGGING!!!!
It seems like simple advice. Good, easy to follow words of wisdom…. but most people (myself included) find it hard to know when they are digging themselves in deeper. Or better yet, how to stop.
For the purpose of this post, I will interchange the terms synchronicity and synergy. I wish there was a word that properly comprised both concepts, but synchronergy sounds awful. So just understand that there are some parts of each word that apply, and it is fully intentional.
So the best way to get started is to connect you to where we left off last time…. I was in San Francisco at a seminar for experts in their fields, and along the way, I had found a new respect and value for myself. I know, it’s something that sounds a little egotistical to say, but it’s completely true.
That evening, I learned something about timing, trust, destiny… In short I learned about the synchronicity of the universe. I learned that we are all EXACTLY where we are supposed to be. I learned that every step on our path, however bumpy, uncomfortable or painful is a necessity to get us to the next place on our never-ending journey.
This blog will chronicle several different...